its may 19th-where the hell have i been?

wow, cant believe i havent posted in so long. well, i am at about 25 lbs down now. I finally got a wonderful new awsome scale. I still cant believe how my weight fluctuates each day. I was 228 on friday, took a 7 mile bike ride w hubby and saturday morning i was 225.something, and then sunday i rode again and was down to 222.something ( i keep forgetting the little 10/ths of a lb) and monday morning i was back up to 225. WTF???? I did think loosing so much from a bike ride was crazy, but at least scale is moving. From start weight of 249 that makes just about 25 lbs. I am on my last shot and wow, after posting on the hcg forum, people are so friggin helpful, its wonderful. Especially lilskigirl51, i just love her. SO thanks lilskigirl51, u are awsome. I cant wait to have a drink memorial day weekend. I have not had any alcohol since well, 40 days ago tomorrow. That is awsome. Yes my name is stephanie and i am a wino. LOVE the VINO!!. However havent actually missed it this whole time. HCG is an amazing little liquid. I really hope i can stabalize my weight during P3. I was planning on loosing but it really is not what you are supposed to do. I am to only go under by 2 lbs max. My hypothalamus is setting itself and to loose too much is bad for my body. Wow, that sounds really f-ed up. But I will continue to do what i need to do to get down to a well, i havent planned a clothing size, but i have two goals. 1 is to be able to wear a tank top and look good and 2... i really want to be able to cross my legs comfortably. I am short, and have short legs, so this will require me to be much smaller. I am on my way. Hurray.

day 25- down 1.5 i think?

I have complained about this cheap scale before and here goes again. Shit, i am so envious of the other people who can report they lost .2 lbs. My scale can change the weight loss up to 1-2 lbs depending on how i stand on it. I am getting a better scale soon. And my clinic scale is a few lbs over mine at home so its annoying that i think i lost more than what is says at the clinic. By my caculations i started at 250-251 after gorging and i am now around 232 (scale said 231.5 on one try as well) Either way, its a nice weight loss. I have so much more to loose, its kinda aggravating. I will need to loose over 25lbs for anyone to notice i think. I dont know why i need that validation. I mean the joy i got this morning when i buttoned a pretty silk black blouse that totally hadent fit me last month should be enough.
Going to New Hampshire this weekend for a wedding. I already am planning on bringing my proteins, bread sticks and fruits. i am sure i can get the veggies on the road or at the wedding. I already paid an extra $10 to have a fridge in the hotel room. So i am planning on being perfect, just like i was last weekend when i went to my sisters bar party in NY. Yikes that was a test. If i passed that, i will find this one to be no problem. I am kinda excited to be done with the VLCD 2 weeks after i come home. Wow, i never thought 40 days would actually be 6 weeks, that sounds much longer than 40 days. The idea i can have a greek salad with feta cheese literally makes my mouth water. And that is perfectly ok on the interm before i start in june again.